I’ve become a victim of my own boredom. Since moving up to Vermont for college, I have had a much bigger need to go outside to places like Lake Bomoseen.
Why would I be going to the lake? I don’t know. I can’t swim or fish. Just being around that environment is really cool to me. All I knew for a very long time was cornfields and fields with a scattered assortment of trees.
Would I call going outside a waste of time? No, I wouldn’t. It would probably be the best part of my time here so far. But the question is how do I find the time to go out and see it?
A good amount of my friends receive an insurmountable amount of homework and are hardly able to leave their room, let alone campus.
Then there’s me. I don’t want to toot my own horn, but I manage to finish my assignments fairly early. I don’t really procrastinate as much as I used to. I’m not taking too many hard classes — I’ve made this semester easy on myself. After 4 p.m., I really have nothing to do other than just lay around or play video games.
I think that’s a bit of a problem.
Now I know many people would die for a schedule like that — having a bunch of free time. Who would not like that? It does sound fun, but I do not have money or a job.
I can’t go out to do something that requires money. I could get a job, but I’m mainly looking at remote internships. Many pay, many do not.
Trying to find a political job in Vermont is harder than I originally expected. The only job opportunity in Montpelier is to run for governor, but unfortunately for me, it seems that has already been taken.
I’m trying very hard to find a job that plays to me working in politics. I’ve been a shift lead at Pizza Hut, but I don’t think that qualifies.
I sound like a total nerd by saying this, but I love my classes. I love learning about social sciences and history. I love having a conversation. I love debate.
But this is how I know I’m bored. I want more homework. Nobody, absolutely nobody, should want more homework.
I hang out with friends a lot, almost every night. I always have time to, some friends leave early or get there late due to homework. Sometimes I wish I had that. A part of me wants to say, “Sorry, I can’t. I have too much homework.”
That is not normal, someone help me get out of this.
I have thought about applying for a work study to get me out of the suite a bit, but I’m of the belief that I am out of options for those. Those applications scare me anyways. It’s a very big, irrational fear, but applications are the bane of my existence. I have a great work-life balance, I have a good social life, but I need something more than that.
I feel like Alexander Hamilton in the Hamilton Broadway show. I am never satisfied. I need to keep moving up and get better. I feel like if I’m doing nothing, then I’m throwing away my “shot.” Or, as Hamilton says, “If you stand for nothing, what will you fall for?”
That is what has been keeping me up and has kept pushing me. I’ve also watched Hamilton 3 times since I got here, so it’s a bit fresh on my mind.
For now, at least, I’m just going to be super bored here. Sitting in my suite, playing Skate 3 and posting every 30 seconds on Twitter.
I think having no free time is terrible, there is no time to cool down. But, having too much free time will make you insane.