Holy Crap, I am still alive. I honestly cannot believe that I made it this far and I feel so good about it. Seriously, this was not as scary as I initially thought it would be. Though I knew college was not going to be easy, I did not want to deal with much more drama. For the entire Summer I was trying to prepare myself for this and keep my head up, but I could not help but be concerned with how it would turn out; whether it would be just like high school or better.
Coming to Castleton University, I was nervous like there was no tomorrow. I didn't know how I was going to survive in this environment. I knew there was no turning back from what would be an epic four-year journey. I was in some ways sad because I didn't feel like I was ready to take on the responsibility of what was to follow, but I could only hope for the best. I was pretty stressed out during my first week of school, as I was concerned with how my grades were (I still am) and wanted to have fun at the same time.
I tried to get involved with things as quickly as I could, risking the amount of free time I would have. I first auditioned for roles in the major theatre shows on campus and as well as for the chamber singers, but it didn't go out as successfully as I thought it would. Luckily, I am in the chorale and did get a part in the black box show, “Letters.”
However, something amazing had happened. I felt it deep inside as the semester took off. I suddenly had a burst of energy, one that would guarantee everything would be fine. However, I still have my moments where I think the exact opposite. Since then, I have been proud to be a college student and am glad that many people are respectful.
Since I started college, I have been able to raise my self-confidence and continue to keep my grades in good standing while at the same time, somehow maintaining a social life. Thanks to meeting new people and doing new activities on campus, I am enjoying life as a college student and I feel more free to be myself. This is a feeling that I haven't in long time.